How Far My Balloon Travels

A “yes” would have ended two years of feeling directionless but a few minutes after hearing “No” I nosed dived into sadness. I just let it come in waves. The feelings would pass, but I felt disoriented, caught up in confusion of what is next; publish on my own or forget about it?

With plan B already in mind, feeling sad took me by surprise. I guess it was a release of almost a years worth of focus.

The sky was touching the earth, light rain fell and thick grey cloud hung in rain curtains. Cold and dampness drew inside with each breath. I returned to nature to sort out my thoughts.

I followed an impulse to stay off the trails and my green oilskin jacket blended me into the fir trees.

I spoke to my guides for help, asking for a clear sign about what is next? I said,

“Make it a sign that I absolutely cannot confuse with anything else. Make it crystal clear and before 6pm, now get to it!” I blubbered.

I broke away from the trees out into the open, down a hill and a mound of dirt pulled me to find a coyote den, empty, but used last summer. My eyes were drawn to clumps of deer fur, no carcass or other remains, a few feet away.

A short distance from that grew two straight ponderosa pines about 20 feet tall. The lowest limbs began swaying as though something had just brushed past them. The rest of the tree was motionless as were the neighbouring trees. You would think it was a breeze, but a very isolated one.

A few more steps and a turn and a green helium balloon hung upside down and deflated, just like my feelings.
“Garbage,” I thought, and reached to pull it from the tree.

I froze. This may be the sign.

An awareness to details rushed in. Attached was a ribbon and turquoise tube (bringing to mind Navajo culture, and my Navajo Spirit Grandmother, perhaps she was providing this answer) and inside was rolled up paper – a message.

The paper was swollen from the rain and too tight to pull out. I carried the balloon and its dangly bits on the rest of the walk, my curiosity growing.

At home I opened it…

click to watch the message.
Mairi Budreau reads a message that arrived by balloon






In the first pass the note didn’t seem to answer the question about which way to go with the book. The words of the child were lovely and innocent, but later when I was telling Huz about it, the meaning came clear.

“I would like to see how far away my balloon travels.”

That’s the message, that’s the direction, “put the book out, set it free and see where it goes.”

Now you recall I asked for a crystal clear message. Well spirit made sure I got it. I checked my email and the first one read:

AbeBooks, Vancouver Island University, and Dynamic Owl Consulting
are looking for candidates like you. (courtesy of LinkedIn)

Okay, I got it clear and concise – keep going with the book!

All this happened before 6pm.

My intuition felt the messages had been understood correctly. This girl was back on course!!

Care to share your asks to the unseen and the answers that came back? Feel free to share below or by email, email is confidential.


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So what does the Coyote mean? by ann Brokelman for Coyote watch canada
Photo: Ann Brokelman for Coyote Watch Canada

You saw the coyote video in the previous post

What answer did he provide?

At the time of the encounter I was focused on the Hay House decision, will they, or won’t they choose to publish my book ?????
A new career direction is up in the air for another month.

Plan B is to self-publish. Either way, the book will be published, seems straight forward right?

What’s up in the air about that?

Answer: Marketing the book. There are many avenues to choose from and because there are three key realms in the story, I saw three different audiences. I was struggling to choose one.

When confused, I ask spirit for help

That morning I asked for a sign to point to the audience.

Next, in the painting studio the music shifted from speaker to speaker and then the volume went up and down ‘all by itself.’
I’d heard this happens to others, but it had never to me before.
I checked the sound system to see if there was something wrong and found nothing.

So I asked out loud, “who is doing this?” No obvious answer came back.

After washing up my brushes I felt the impulse to take the camera and walk in the Park and you saw what happened there.

The encounter felt noteworthy and curiousity opened…

Did the coyote represent ‘who’ manipulated the music? I was talking about the music when he burst in with the howl.

Who or what does coyote represent to me?
The Navajo, and this leads me to the Navajo Grandmother who ‘shows up’ providing insight and wisdom in spirit readings.

Then I thought; I live in Secwepemc territory and their Creation story features coyote. Do I market here first? Well yes, okay there’s an answer. These questions were rattling through my head when,

“Go back to look for the Coyote” popped into my thoughts.

As you know I did return and he was there. Precious moments of his presence were not recorded as I wrestled with digging out my glasses from a zipped pocket and trying to record with a glare on the camera viewing screen.

If the coyote means the Navajo Grandmother was the music shifter, that points towards one of the three audiences, which is the Indigenous  – ok that makes sense.

At home I turned to Ted Andrews book, Animal Speak
and these points resonated:

Much magic has been associated with the coyote, but the magic doesn’t
always work.

I started to second guess my interpretation !

Even in it’s not working, it serves a purpose.

Could it be the book will not be chosen, but has served a purpose anyway?

There is always hidden wisdom where the coyote is concerned. He reminds us not to become too serious and that anything is possible. Coyote makes things more complicated than they need to be.

Am I complicating the marketing? Probably.

I admit, I get too serious about things!

In the days afterward this percolated and I relaxed about wanting to know all the answers.

It turned out my book wasn’t selected. Was anything lost? – find out in next weekend’s post.

The marketing hasn’t been sorted out, but I let go of needing answers right now. The hidden wisdom will appear when the time is right.


I’m sharing these authentic events and interpretations with you whether they pan out or not, to open up an old way of connecting to the earth to understand ourselves on deeper levels.

So many of us feel we are alone, but nothing could be further from the truth. Connections from the spirit world occur all the time. When there is a willingness to see, feel, or hear, they appear in gentleness.

If you’ve had signs appear to you, or if you have insight on what happened to me – feel free to share them below or send an email.



Hibernation is Over

I stepped back from blogging these past few months to focus on writing my biography.

A lot of the time I felt directionless, but I kept writing. Internal emotional changes came weekly and sometimes daily. The most significant being:

• shrinking fear and replacing it with trust

• judging others is replaced with compassion

and out of the storm of confusion and change the dust has settled a lot and I can see clearly what course lies ahead.

Now the hibernation is over. This girl is sprouting, emerging from good old Mother Earth energy with a host of authentic growth stories, spiritual visits, signs and symbols.

A huge hurdle has been overcome during this time. For more almost 50 years anxiety has racked my body and mind – now it’s greatly diminished. It no longer runs my life and I cannot tell you how liberated I am!


Over one hundred proposals were submitted. One was selected for a publishing contract plus $10,000, and two others were awarded self publishing packages worth several thousand dollars as well.

As a first time author, I’m pleased to have written four drafts of almost 100,000 words and a 70 page book proposal. Hay House did not choose to publish my story and they do not say why, this was expected.

The fifth draft of my book is in the works and I’m talking to the self publishing division of Hay House, Balboa Books, and will self-publish – date to be announced.


All my social media is being re-organized now that I know where I’m going. The announcement about what this is will be coming soon!!!

Expect regular posts to resume, plus video stories or vlog, updates on the book and the big announcement!

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Visit my website! Click on the picture and see a spiritual experience in action caught on video! On the website click on Quiet Walker video

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